not another headache

i can feel it creeping up. just a little squeeze on my temples. and it's still hot outside which doesn't help. I have hit a low point the last few days and struggle to come to terms with how my life has changed since the beginning of 2010. almost entirely in negative ways. so I realize I need to find a way to make the negatives into new positives. I thought re-vamping my business was the answer but I see now it was only a distraction. nothing seems to make sense to me. I can't help but nurse that "what did I do to deserve this" attitude. I think, for now, it's time to take a nap.