not another headache

i can feel it creeping up. just a little squeeze on my temples. and it's still hot outside which doesn't help. I have hit a low point the last few days and struggle to come to terms with how my life has changed since the beginning of 2010. almost entirely in negative ways. so I realize I need to find a way to make the negatives into new positives. I thought re-vamping my business was the answer but I see now it was only a distraction. nothing seems to make sense to me. I can't help but nurse that "what did I do to deserve this" attitude. I think, for now, it's time to take a nap.

too damn hot

why do people like hot weather? I don't get it. being hot sucks. and it's not just because I am a woman "of that age". tho I am. I am also a notorious sweater. no, not sweater like "I'm cold, let me get a sweater". I mean person of over active sweat glands. don't get me wrong, I am very clean and I use deoderant/anti-perspirant. I smell just fine. but I still sweat. a lot. anything over 78 degrees and I get a tad fussy. over 85? I'm pissy. but over 90? oh, hell no! I can't stand it. growing up in California you'd think I was used to this. You'd think, huh? no. why do people prefer this to cold weather? I didn't grow up with snow so I can't compare but being sweaty makes me unhappy. i guess shoveling snow would too. well, today was 99 here. yes, I'm bitchy and I choose to use my blog to bitch. 'nuff said.

Sitting, waiting, wishing

a day free from dumpsters! aka: whoo hoo!

yesterday was D day part 2. we came, we filled, we left. no more dumpsters for a few weeks now. which is good news for me. to celebrate, I got on the torch today. that's right, I made beads. not many, I must admit. but it felt good. after a few hours playing with melty, gooey glass we went out for awhile. poked around in a few stores, then went for dinner at Lucille's. Lucille's is the best BBQ place we have around and although I'm not a HUGE meat fan, every once in awhile I just have to have a meat meal. as if that wasn't enough, we then went and loaded up on huge containers of fro yo at Yogurtland. Yogurtland is like a drug. It is a terrible, evil place of various yogurt flavors and toppings. once you start there is no turning back. right Joni? am I right? so, i gotta go now and suffer from the tummy ache I SO deserve!

dumpster day / part one

wow. how fast can 2 people fill up an entire dumpster to the tippy top? about an hour. that's what David (my son) and I did today at my mom's house. we filled it so fast, the dumpster company is coming to pick it up tomorrow and bring an empty one. and we will be back. tomorrow. to fill it too. it was a morning filled with bag after bag of receipts, birthday cards, newspapers, business cards etc. I don't think my dad ever threw away a piece of paper that came into his hands. it makes me re-think all the junk I have stashed away. it might be time to simplify. AFTER I finish at mom's, that is.