Sum-yum-er

I confess. Hello, my name is stacey and I am a frozen coke addict. No not coke, like cocaine, frozen coca cola. I have been doing it for years. Sneaking half filled cans into the freezer (to full? Oops! They bubble over in frozen goopy delight) buying special freezing mugs, and going mental if the local gas station is featuring coke as a slurpee flavor. The night of my 10 year class reunion I had a coke slurpee and a pop tart for dinner knowing that whatever chicken slop was served I wasn't going to eat. After all these years it occurred to me a snow cone machine and a jug of coke syrup might be the way to go. Oh my! An addict making her own supply. Goodbye coffee in the morning! Goodbye Popsicles after dinner! Hello beautiful white snow drizzled in dark sticky coke syrup. Oh the joy. Combine that with now having access to a pool whenever I want....see you in the winter peeps!

all good things.....

isn't that the saying?  all good things must come to an end?  do bad things HAVE to come to an end too (I hope!)?  I have had many things come to an end in the last few years. Some things I've struggled and suffered to say goodbye to.  other things were a sad relief.  I won't go into it all but its been a rough road.  now, a new loss is  around the corner.  i cant say i didn't see it coming but i am blind-sided nonetheless.  our beautiful, sweet dog Maddie (aka The Moo) will be leaving us soon.  she has been a huge part of the family for 11 years.  how do you prepare to say goodbye?  how do you know when its time?  i can't imagine life without the moo under foot, snoring or begging for food.  i cant imagine life without that beautiful face with the big brown cow eyes.

Relationships

Its interesting, I've been thinking about this subject a lot in the past few days. Whether good or bad they don't ever stay the same. Parents, spouses, children, siblings, friends and even pets. Everyone is constantly changing, seeing things with their own reality. We all live in our own little worlds, allowing people in and pushing them out. Sometimes they leave on their own, sometimes they come back unexpectantly. Sometimes, they pass away but you still carry them around. I've lost so many people in the last few years. Some to death, some to anger or betrayal. But I've gained as much as I've lost and I need to make that my new reality.